遗憾 很遗憾

看你远去
我只是默默地落泪
何时又能在见？


我的心在挂念你
总会把那发黄的照片看几遍
照片上的指纹已多得模糊不清 都是我的

难得见到你
失望的 看见身旁有个女孩
不断的与你咬耳朵


远远听见你低沉的声音
我又回想起我第一次听见你 呼唤我名
那也只有一次 是珍贵的一次


我的视线无法离开你
最后随便用个借口 把自己给冻结了
也许我不停阻止自己迷上你 而变成了永远的遗憾

这一生 也许我只能成为你的历史
也许你早把我给忘了


也许 你从不在乎我的存在

<3 19/7/2008 . Sunway Pyramid

Me and my girls. <3

Me.
Me and Meeyan.
From left: Yeeyer, Chamin and Ah Cheu.

S.O.S

Today was great. Just great. Me and friends laughed A LOT. Almost fell from my chair. LOL. Cinderella introduced me a song, it was soooooooo nice. Of course, it's DBSK's song. lol. And it's sooooooooooooooooo sad. When I watched the mv my tear is dancing in my eyes. And an unknown pain from my heart. Just feel so sad. Well, it's not Cinderella's fault to introduce me a sad song, the song itself is nice, that's why. lol. Just now slept accidentally, not my fault! Today a person gave me something, yea, a thing. lol. Odd.
Today, SleepingB. showed her real her. The inside her. lol. She said a lot of things that we never heard from her. lol. And Jasmine's still the normal Jasmine. Ariel's still the normal Ariel. Belle's a bit crazy today. And, SnowW. is out of her mind lol. I don't wanna be Snow White!!

Ok lah Ok lah, you all must be curious about why am I mentioning the Disney Princess's names.

Snow White - ME. =.=
Ariel - Ah Cheu
Cinderella - LinLin
Sleeping Beauty - Swannie
Belle - Meeyan
Jasmine - Yeeyer.

Ok it's so weird, but whatever. You all won't understand. lol. This is our way to communicate. LOL.

ToooDay (=

Am so happy today. Hanging out with friends. (= Went karaoke, (= we sang until our throats were going to blow. lol. Although we didn't get to sing alllllll of our songs, but still, satisfied. After singing, we went shopping. Yeeyer and Chamin went shopping by themselves while me, Meeyan and Ah Cheu went looking for clothes for Meeyan. We saw a lot of pretty pretty pretty pretty clothes, and none of them went back with us. Well the price is even pretty, there're discounts and discounts but well, I don't want to own them. Then we took pictures, a lot of them. Am happy with the photos, everyone smiled. Was going to watch tele, but chose to blog. Am happy today. Maybe there's a surprise on monday, hah, who knows. I am always waiting for surprises, although I don't like surprises. But surprises make me feel better than imagining things. Like.. a person told me he's going to give me A THING, but I really want to know what's THE THING, so I asked him what's it, unfortunately he told me what's THE THING, then I'll get very excited to receive THAT THING, but in the end the guy was just lying. Then my excitement jumps from the top of the world to the bottom of the hell. lols. I always feel when I can't get things I really really really want to get, but if the things are not necessary, I will slowly forget about it after a few days. It's ok for me to not buy the things I want, what I only buy is what I need. I always think like this, but I just success only a few times. hah. I'm bored.

Happpppppppppy (=

Today I'm so so so so so so happy. First, I brought my cellphone to school(okay that's not something happy). Then there's a general meeting of my favourite club. Then we elected new president, (=. Am so glad that me and friends voted for the right person. And he's the president now! Last year I voted for another girl and she's now the ex-president. Gooood news, me and Miyan are selected for the Merdeka drama! However, I still have to congrats my girls to be involved in the drama, too, just a bit saddy for them. Alrightyy, today is a happy day. Tomorrow will be an exciting day, am going out with friends! Yay. The opportunity for going out with friends is like soooo slim, yeah maybe not for some people, but for me, I can count the total of days I went out with friends in 1 hand. Cool huh?

哎哟我的妈呀 哈

这次是我第一次用华语来部落。哈哈。
明天是妈咪的生日，祝她生日快乐！年年有今日，岁岁有今朝。明天唱k庆祝哦！在下个星期又去唱，庆祝朋友的生日。厉害呢。。

有一种感觉侵犯了我脆弱的心，那是忌妒。不懂干嘛的，就是有两种忌妒心。朋友成绩比我好，忌妒。她和他亲密，忌妒。朋友之间的忌妒已经有三年了，不过没关系，我不想破坏我们的友情。我对她和他的忌妒，我快受不了，快疯了。我写了好多封信，都想送给他，可是全部写了到最后留给自己读算了。每一封大同小异，可是表达的方法都不一样，有超直接的，有很老套的，有不知所谓的，哈哈。其实，我写了这些信都有跟朋友们分享哦！让她们看看也不定是坏事嘛，她们看了都劝我给他，可是我不敢。我没有如此大的勇气，我没用。秋羽说：不去尝试，永远都不会知道他想什么。让他知道了，至少会把注意力投在我身上，这样也好。说就容易了，问题是我做不到。他的朋友告诉我他有了女朋友，这我也没办法啊！谁叫我欣赏他有超棒的才华，这么一个欣赏花了我一年又一个月了。怎么办？把信统统烧掉！哈哈。

谁能告诉我，我应该要怎么面对他？我们未曾对话，每次都是我望他而没他望我的。每次都是我爱他而没他爱我的。好想哭。焦虑而哭，伤心而哭，想爱而哭。救我！

Awesome! (Sarcasm)

So mad. Am sick. Greaaat(sarcasm).

So mad. Still need to present. Oh ma God.

So mad. Suddenly feel like watching Cinderella.

So mad. I cooked my television for many days. And washed my brain with movies.

So mad. Fell asleep for a thousand times.

So mad. Staying at home. Lazy for school(NOT).

So mad. Didn't do homework. That's not what I was planning.

So mad. Am so so so so so so so so addicted to anime.
Honey and Clover. -- i love it man...
Cardcaptor Sakura. -- ok ok lah, but ended today. Last episode was a crap.

So mad. Watched KungFu Panda. Caught myself laughing, alone.

So mad. Wanted to watch it again. And again.

So mad. I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL LAH.... MAMA... T^T

So mad. Am having a ''WIN-WIN" situation here. Ok, I don't want to go to school.

So mad. But I miss... miss miss miss miss miss miss miss. OWH NOTHING LAH!

Memories?

-Pretty wall lights huh? (:

-This is where I stepped on a darn nail.

-Beautiful life.

-I see something. Dreaming about it.

-Yay Victor!

Sad and Bad but A's

The exam is over YES! Yeah that was days ago, but I only get the time to blog now. I am satisfied with my latest result, just a little worried about the others which I have not got them yet. Today was a total crap, I was so mad, the ones in my class should know what had happened. WTF. I swear I will never talk to him EVER. If there's a little bad luck falls on my head and I'm gone. Uh whatever.
I don't know what's wrong with me, nowadays I'm sooo emo. People told me, I even felt it myself. Why? There's another girl who likes him? Maybe that's why. It has been 1 year since I knew him, and I just fell in love.. um, honestly I like talented guys. Don't ask why, I am just like this. If you're ''the guy'' who is reading this now, thanks. Thanks for reading my blog. The latest sad news, a friend of mine asked HIM what does he think about me. How stupid. I didn't ask my friend to do so, but he just asked HIM himself. Oh ma god I'm messing everything up. The question ended up with a negative answer. I don't mind because the question wasn't coming out from my mouth, but his mouth, I mean my friend's. It wasn't the question I want to ask HIM. Well as I told you guys before, I only want a silent like. That's all. I decided not to tell HIM what I think about HIM because will only ''deform'' our friendship. I think there isn't even a friendship between us, we never talked before. Cool huh? Haha. That's why I'm silent to him. Tell you something, I don't want to like any other guys besides HIM. Yeah, it's kind of impossible, but this is my mission. LOL. my mission: not to fall in love with any other guys. No more guys.- haha, I'm just a dreamer, almost everything I want to do I can't succeed. I'm a lazy girl but having a hardworking me inside me.

My dear friends,
Do you understand what I said just now?
Ah well, if you don't understand just forget about it, don't ask me anything about the text above. My sad things. ):

But happy too! @.@ I GOT A's! LOL.

Mixture

Next Monday will be the first day of exam. Darn it. I can't finish revising. The books are like Mount Everest crashing on me. Godddd.

I feel, kind of sad. Oh no, it's not the exam thing. It's.. It's because of I didn't get to listen to DBSK for a long long long long time already. Their songs are the best. The best among Koreans, I meant. XDD. I bought Victor Wong's and Will's latest album! YAY! My God, their new songs are so nice. Especially Will, I admire him so much. He is so smart! Okay whatever, haha.

This holiday is boring laaa. Getting sick of it, but hoping it won't end so soon. jee.

My way to like him, is just sit here quietly and look at him. Just look at him, feel the happiness he's enjoying as if I'm enjoying it too! This is just what I think, I don't have to tell him what I feel about him. OKAY I'M JUST KIDDING LA, I want to tell him, but I won't. wakaka.

-Something destroys my life, Everything's a nothing now. I have nothing in my life but and I will lie down on the cold filthy floor for the rest of my life just to wait someone special to save me.