没了

不知道 会有什么样的答案

我只想让他知道

就让他知道

我很满足了

我不期望得到什么回报

亦不期望谁的注意

我想一件事

就要让他懂 懂 我是这么一想

懂了吗？

懂了就好

也许你懂了 就把它给忘了

也许你懂了 就不当成一回事儿

也许你懂了 就慢儿的把我给爱了

我不知道 怎么这矛盾渗入心中

我不知道 怎么觉得 远远看着你 我就很快乐

我更不知道 你的心在哪里

我不想知道 你被谁占有

我不要知道 你快乐是因为谁

也许 你认为我是个小孩

小孩就不能爱吗？

爱了 才晓得如何长大

爱了 才晓得如何珍惜

爱了 才晓得如何 更爱

也许 你不懂我

不懂我有多需要你

需要你爱

期望你疼

渴望你笑

盼望你好

一切都只能幻想

只能在梦里发生

只能在梦里发展

只能在梦里结束

梦醒了 梦没了 没了

我是卖鱼的

哎救命啊！今天可说是鱼死了，不是 鱼 死了，而是 鱼死了。
我终于开金口了！妈呀，我幻想这天幻想得快疯了。
我从去年就想和他说话，可是勇气不可佳的我，拖了一年多都没和他说句话。
不过，说得太少了！
虽然这些事可以慢慢来，但我说了那么一句而已，而且是不是话的话。
天哪！！我在说啥！？
哈哈。我疯了。
我们也有交换眼神，不过还是算了吧。哈。

我升级做颠婆之后，果然没辜负给我升级的老友茵。
我酝酿了那么久，终于有了够班的颠婆风范！
哈！
我好开心。
老友茵说我笑起来整个人变成了另一个人，那就是变成了颠婆！
我好喜欢做颠婆哦，令我有多多少少的成就感。
我这家伙，什么都不像，什么都不是。
终于，等到了这天。
有人承认我了，那个伟大的人就是老友茵。

在班上，有人不爽我。
不知道是谁。
只是一想起那些无聊的人，就很想知道到底是谁！！
我疯了，我快精神分裂症了。
有人可以帮我吗？
只要送我去青山院就行了。
或者把我锁在空房里，让我慢慢酿成颠婆酒。

原来一个朋友，他曾与我在不同的时候在同一个地方享受。
我们分享。快乐。
他喝酒，竟然可以喝十杯喝到吐，劲勒！
我只喝少少，就要吐了。
说起喝酒，我上次一口气喝了一罐，忍不住了。
忍不住啥？喝了一半，我就吐了出来。
不过。
我还是继续喝。
我是虐待狂吗？

遗憾 很遗憾

看你远去
我只是默默地落泪
何时又能在见？


我的心在挂念你
总会把那发黄的照片看几遍
照片上的指纹已多得模糊不清 都是我的

难得见到你
失望的 看见身旁有个女孩
不断的与你咬耳朵


远远听见你低沉的声音
我又回想起我第一次听见你 呼唤我名
那也只有一次 是珍贵的一次


我的视线无法离开你
最后随便用个借口 把自己给冻结了
也许我不停阻止自己迷上你 而变成了永远的遗憾

这一生 也许我只能成为你的历史
也许你早把我给忘了


也许 你从不在乎我的存在

<3 19/7/2008 . Sunway Pyramid

Me and my girls. <3

Me.
Me and Meeyan.
From left: Yeeyer, Chamin and Ah Cheu.

S.O.S

Today was great. Just great. Me and friends laughed A LOT. Almost fell from my chair. LOL. Cinderella introduced me a song, it was soooooooo nice. Of course, it's DBSK's song. lol. And it's sooooooooooooooooo sad. When I watched the mv my tear is dancing in my eyes. And an unknown pain from my heart. Just feel so sad. Well, it's not Cinderella's fault to introduce me a sad song, the song itself is nice, that's why. lol. Just now slept accidentally, not my fault! Today a person gave me something, yea, a thing. lol. Odd.
Today, SleepingB. showed her real her. The inside her. lol. She said a lot of things that we never heard from her. lol. And Jasmine's still the normal Jasmine. Ariel's still the normal Ariel. Belle's a bit crazy today. And, SnowW. is out of her mind lol. I don't wanna be Snow White!!

Ok lah Ok lah, you all must be curious about why am I mentioning the Disney Princess's names.

Snow White - ME. =.=
Ariel - Ah Cheu
Cinderella - LinLin
Sleeping Beauty - Swannie
Belle - Meeyan
Jasmine - Yeeyer.

Ok it's so weird, but whatever. You all won't understand. lol. This is our way to communicate. LOL.

ToooDay (=

Am so happy today. Hanging out with friends. (= Went karaoke, (= we sang until our throats were going to blow. lol. Although we didn't get to sing alllllll of our songs, but still, satisfied. After singing, we went shopping. Yeeyer and Chamin went shopping by themselves while me, Meeyan and Ah Cheu went looking for clothes for Meeyan. We saw a lot of pretty pretty pretty pretty clothes, and none of them went back with us. Well the price is even pretty, there're discounts and discounts but well, I don't want to own them. Then we took pictures, a lot of them. Am happy with the photos, everyone smiled. Was going to watch tele, but chose to blog. Am happy today. Maybe there's a surprise on monday, hah, who knows. I am always waiting for surprises, although I don't like surprises. But surprises make me feel better than imagining things. Like.. a person told me he's going to give me A THING, but I really want to know what's THE THING, so I asked him what's it, unfortunately he told me what's THE THING, then I'll get very excited to receive THAT THING, but in the end the guy was just lying. Then my excitement jumps from the top of the world to the bottom of the hell. lols. I always feel when I can't get things I really really really want to get, but if the things are not necessary, I will slowly forget about it after a few days. It's ok for me to not buy the things I want, what I only buy is what I need. I always think like this, but I just success only a few times. hah. I'm bored.

Happpppppppppy (=

Today I'm so so so so so so happy. First, I brought my cellphone to school(okay that's not something happy). Then there's a general meeting of my favourite club. Then we elected new president, (=. Am so glad that me and friends voted for the right person. And he's the president now! Last year I voted for another girl and she's now the ex-president. Gooood news, me and Miyan are selected for the Merdeka drama! However, I still have to congrats my girls to be involved in the drama, too, just a bit saddy for them. Alrightyy, today is a happy day. Tomorrow will be an exciting day, am going out with friends! Yay. The opportunity for going out with friends is like soooo slim, yeah maybe not for some people, but for me, I can count the total of days I went out with friends in 1 hand. Cool huh?

哎哟我的妈呀 哈

这次是我第一次用华语来部落。哈哈。
明天是妈咪的生日，祝她生日快乐！年年有今日，岁岁有今朝。明天唱k庆祝哦！在下个星期又去唱，庆祝朋友的生日。厉害呢。。

有一种感觉侵犯了我脆弱的心，那是忌妒。不懂干嘛的，就是有两种忌妒心。朋友成绩比我好，忌妒。她和他亲密，忌妒。朋友之间的忌妒已经有三年了，不过没关系，我不想破坏我们的友情。我对她和他的忌妒，我快受不了，快疯了。我写了好多封信，都想送给他，可是全部写了到最后留给自己读算了。每一封大同小异，可是表达的方法都不一样，有超直接的，有很老套的，有不知所谓的，哈哈。其实，我写了这些信都有跟朋友们分享哦！让她们看看也不定是坏事嘛，她们看了都劝我给他，可是我不敢。我没有如此大的勇气，我没用。秋羽说：不去尝试，永远都不会知道他想什么。让他知道了，至少会把注意力投在我身上，这样也好。说就容易了，问题是我做不到。他的朋友告诉我他有了女朋友，这我也没办法啊！谁叫我欣赏他有超棒的才华，这么一个欣赏花了我一年又一个月了。怎么办？把信统统烧掉！哈哈。

谁能告诉我，我应该要怎么面对他？我们未曾对话，每次都是我望他而没他望我的。每次都是我爱他而没他爱我的。好想哭。焦虑而哭，伤心而哭，想爱而哭。救我！