FAT

Suddenly recall my days when I pindah my room.... That time I just bought Mirotic and kept on listening to it. Smelling the new paint, playing Pet Society and listening to Mirotic... I miss it so much.. And it was over-PMR. So I felt so happy and waiting for the trip to Brisbane. But now, even it's the end of the year, I just don't feel like last year. I think I'm still afraid of school, I'm now ponteng-ing school, so most of the people got their exam results and I am just too afraid to accept the truth that I may fail my subjects.. Not that I've not failed any, it's just.. sad. And it's only the beginning of the holiday(well not yet but I take it as a holiday..) I don't wanna re-feel the tense and pressure this quick. I hope I can relax until it's time(I think) then I'll restart my brain and fight for SPM. Um, wait, I don't wanna restart my brain! That'll start from zero! So, I'll rest.
Maybe "some" people will think that: "REST? Why the hell do you need rest? You're slacking through the whole year!"
Oh man, I certainly don't wanna hear these words.
I am enjoying my life now, who doesn't want this kind of life?!
A few years ago, I was a brat who doesn't care about what was happening around me. And now I'm caring too much, worrying here and there, even mom said that I worried too much and pointless..
What am I? I've been thinking about this question for a million times and there's no conclusion.
I think, I'm a normal person, living a normal life. But sometimes I don't think so, I think that I'm special(in some ways la). But sometimes I think that I suck badly. It's not that my life quality isn't good, but my LIFE isn't good. I don't think I'm complaining, I'm just pissed off of myself. I can't make myself happy, I can't make myself feel like I'm lucky to be in this world. I think I'm weird.
Well, get rid of the sad part, I'm happy now because I'm home alone! But not for long, later I'll feel scared and wanna cry. LOL. I'm still a person who is afraid of almost everything I see. Hahahaha.
Nowadays, I feel like going swimming. I wanna train my muscle back without breaking a sweat. Lol. Because my arm muscles are starting to... soften and become MEAT!
NOOOOO!!! I don't wanna grow fat!! Because I'm short and now my weight just won't go down so I'm considered as FAT!
GOD HELP ME TO LOOSE SOME WEIGHT! JUST 2KG WILL DO!!



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